You are the Potter, and i am the clay

Today, it stroked me that i am not sure of the purpose God has in my life. At Young adults, they sang they sang the song, and it reminded of how at times i lose focus of the purpose in my life that God has set for me. But frankly, what is my purpose? And how am i to fulfill it, and who am i to be the one to fulfill it. These questions were in my mind as i sang the song.

No eye has seen, no ear has heard
The good that the Lord has prepared for those
Who wait on Him, to hear His voice
"I am the potter and you are the clay"

Jesus take me in Your hands
And make me all that You want me to be
Jesus help me understand
Your purpose and what You can do through me
Fulling your destiny

                   Indeed, i think the reason im living each day is to seek what God has in plan for me. Am i already fulfilling it? Am i doing a good job? When i approach that day when i see God in Heaven, will He say :"Well done, good and faithful servant" ? I am not living each day to find the most suitable life partner i can live with or to face daily issues about relationships i get troubled about or neither is it about the choices i make that will determine my secular livelihood. But rather, focusing on the purpose He has in mind for me. Many do not realize that purpose and live with no direction. Similarly, i get lost. almost all the time. Lost in the world, lost in the kind of emotions the world gets into and lost in that dead cycle where i cant get myself out of it. Someone ones told me that one day, when i reach the peak of the mountain i have been climbing all along, i would simply find a ceiling..and thats all there is. I dont want to find myself pursuing something that will fade in time to come, something that is not what He has for me... And this is where prayer comes in. Prayer.
              Thank God for the lesson learnt today (:

van

Time has been slipping off my fingers like water. "time to hit the books" i will say, but after 1 hour, nothing has been done.. I need more discipline!!!

van

There is always something to give thanks for...

Give thanks for all the sighs and stresses, it shows we are stressed up about something we are unhappy about and we want to do something to change it.
Give thanks for all the hurtful comments that come out so straightly, this shows they dont beat around the bush and they want to solve the issue quick
Give thanks for all the quarrels, this shows that they actually get agitated and are not perfect, just like everyone else.
Give thanks for the tears that come flowing down, this shows im human and that there is more room for improvement so that they wont come flowing down the next time.
Give thanks for walk aways, this shows we want a time out, to take a step back to look at it from another view and reflect upon what has just happened.
Give thanks for closing doors, for we need time to repent in our own corners of the house
Above all,
Give thanks for parents that actually scold, because this shows they care about us. God gave parents the authority for a reason.
However, i'm truly sorry for all the times where i havent been the best daughter they can have, or failing to live up to their expectation. Truly sorry for at that moment i forgot that i could have done better. But i must admit im still learning. im still learning to understand it from your point, but i need their trust more. To trust me to make the right decisions and to trust that i wont break their trust. I understand they cant afford to risk it. But i hope they can see their baby girl is growing up and i need their trust to continue walking strong in this crude world.
im tired of trying to tell them, trust me.

All in all, im grateful for we will definitely grow stronger after the rain. we will all learn from it and cherish one another more. I may have never said it because  i dont know how to put it across, but im so so so thankful for everyone of them, and i wont want to lose them. never.

van

Life just gets better.

            
We had a great time spent together. Be it the sharing, laughing, praying, singing, playing, or even the silence in the theatre. That life spirit just naturally glow in each of them and thats really amazing. Each with our own gifts and talents, so different, yet we can all gel together so. it was just a pity we didnt manage to get photos together today..*pout*. but i think i will cherish those times when we were together. Because life will be different without our queen around soon. *pout* (again). i guess i will be missing her songs and her singing on random streets where not many people have the courage to do that.
             Anyway, im gonna drop the topic now until 26th jan, and im gonna cherish everytime i get to meet her.And it starts with today. Managed to walk her all the way back home all the way to the lift. We talked and smiled (: it was nice though we didnt say much, but the presence of having to walk together was peaceful. Give thanks (:
           "One life, love it"- van.
<3 van

He smoothens the rough ends.

Today, was a packed day. f\From dental to home to church for wedding to tuition, to church again, to home, and to the Regents hotel. fully packed, but fully satisfied. because the Lord took control. He took control of my thoughts and my plans and made everything turn out well (:
GIVE THANKS.
He gave me a very very understanding econs tutor, who never fails to be patient with my late goings and is ever patient to repeat something i missed even though she has repeated herself twice.
GIVE THANKS.
He gave me parents that provide for my every need even if it may be during the hard times when we are short in finances.
GIVE THANKS.
He made buses and trains arrive so timely before i can stand on the platform for more than 3 mins.
GIVE THANKS.
He provided a car for dada, so he can pick me home (: without me having to survive the one hour journey back home.
GIVE THANKS.
He make plans meet, so our outing on monday would be successful.
GIVE THANKS.
The list goes on, but just within one day, there is endless things to thank God for.
Im grateful for i have again lived yet another day.

good night. ITS SABBATH DAY ALREADY. GIVE THANKS (:

<3 van

"Therefore do not fear them. For there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, and hidden that will not be known."- Matthew 10:26

You keep me hanging there

Daddy God,
its coming back again. that feeling that makes me feel so weak and fragile. What would Jesus do in times of such. How would He react to those words, to those laughter, to those hypocrisy? He would forgive. But why do i know the answer fully but yet find it so so so tough to do so. It creeps into my mind.



Isaiah 41:10- So do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Anyway

People are often unreasonable, 
Illogical and self-centred;
Forgive them anyway.


If you are kind, 
People may accuse you of
Selfish,ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway


If you are successful, 
You will win some false friends and
Some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.


If you are honest and frank,
People may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.


What you spend years building,
Someone could destroy it overnight,
Build anyway.


If you find serenity and happiness,
They may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.


Give the world the best you have.
And it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.


You see,in the final analysis,
It is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.