Dear Me,
today you found this blog again and decided to let it come alive again (for don't know what reason). And as of today you are 23 years 1 month and 18 days old. And the only reason why you are here typing this, is probably cause Alv is away in Sweden having the time of his life while you're here alone and finding hard to adapt with the silence. Just like before. It hasnt been smooth. Nope it hasnt.
3 years down and life is totally different. no more SIM or paper market. Its ADM Year 3, Med Karlek and Vince Music Art Studio. I doubt you saw this coming, but you're here now. And the same question still rings, "what's life ahead gonna be?" and does it have to be the path that every Singaporean grad were to take?
Graduation
Find a stable job
Get Married
Have kids
Sustain your job to raise your kids
Work to sustain the bills
Is there more to life than striving for materialistic goals? As the age for getting married draws nearer, why does my urge to want a marriage grow smaller? As if there might be more to life than this.
You and alv havent had the sunniest of days in your time together. And its looking pretty stormy right now. You cant get by a day without a disagreement and you find yourself so imperfect in his eyes. Maybe we're just all tired. and maybe its time to take a break. A good good break.
But indeed through it all. the good and the bad, God is still faithful. We are down to almost a month or so before the musical "Experiencing God" and there has indeed never been a better encounter than to be part of this musical. So though much has changed, but God has stayed the same. And His love for you, will always be the same just that at times you are stubborn and you dont see it. You choose not to see it cause you only believe in your failures and falls. Times like that, you just need to let God and let God work because you know you can't do this anymore. And only He knows your pain.
This too shall pass,
Van
