Sinning, is like pounding in a nail. But forgiving is like taking a hammer and pulling the nail out from the wall. Although sins can be forgiven, there will still be a scar, and there will still be consequences which we have to face.
Did you know van too at times find it so hard to forgive. but many a times, people tell me that i have to learn to forgive myself before i can forgive others. But how to forgive myself when i know that at times the hurt i caused is so deep. The hurt that i cause will set a deep scar in the lives of others, especially the close ones. Its been years already, but yet these scars never healed. Every time, a spark sets off, it becomes a fire because the scars reveal themselves.
Today, i spent 7 hours on my own. these 7 hours, i spent talking to God and also reflecting alot about the life i have been living. Went back to st marg's, went to the first ever tuition centre i applied for, ate lunch alone, took the bus and everything. it was great "me time" spent. But then i asked myself, what is it that i want. then i realised i didnt have what i want in mind which is why my decisions keep changing and that is why i did things i regretted after that...
from now on, its time to get back on the track. the track that pleases God.
forgive but dont forget cause they are valuable lessons that needs to be archived.
van van.
