There is a vacuum in us, which only He can fill.

There is a longing, only You can fill
A raging tempest only You can still
My soul is thirsty Lord to know You as Im know, drink from the river
That flows before Your throne

Take me deeper, deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
Take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before
And i just want to love you more and more
How i long, to be deeper in love

Sunrise to sunrise, i will see Your face
Drawn by the spirit to the promise of Your grace
My love have found in You a HOPE that will abide
Here in Your presence, forever satisfy.

Daddy God, tomorrow marks the first event that the new exco is in control of. And i can feel the stress rising up in me as time ticks away. Help me to know that i will be able to pull through it. You can see the things left undone, the work that has not been completed, the tiredness, the stress i am facing with, the shame of not doing it well. But even if so, i lift up R.E.A.L Run ino Your hands.
amen.

I have a mission in life to fulfill

i was hanging the clothes like 10 mins ago and then i was doing some reflection about some stuff. about the day at church, about our family, about how my reactions can affect situations and how it had affected situations of today,about the events that went by today and the day before and about sis. i thought alot. and then suddenly that few questions i used to ask myself so often came to mind when i thought about sis. I used to ask myself,' why did God make me taller then my sis? why did He make me bigger in build? why am i like the one who is like suppose to protect her when i am the younger one? why am i like the 'guy' who is able to open all the bottle caps in the world that no girl in class in st marg's can open? why why why...' but then, suddenly, i felt God talking to. and it was like... there is a reason for all these to happen. it wasnt an accident that i am taller, stronger, bolder, fatter maybe, there was a purpose behind it. God made me all those factors different from my sis, is so as to be the protector to protect ehr form the danger, to be that pillar when she doesnt have one, to be that comforter when she loses one, to be that strength when she needs one. but then all these years i never realize this. in fact, i use to despise the fact that i am taller, bigger in build etc. but then now, i realize the truth which makes sense. and its just such a weird thing to find out like while hanging clothes in the yard.
the thing is, im guilty. many a times, i run away from this responsibility God has given unto me. i avoid listening to her conversations, i didnt want to know about her life, i thought that being ignorant would be good for myself, i thought that she was old enough to settle her own problems, but then i was wrong. God has purpose in making me who i am. it was not a wrong miscalculation of the dimension God wanted to give me neither a error in putting a tall gene in my DNA.
knowing this truth caused me to kinda like see more light and i am so .... shocked to find this out. but firstly, i pray to be able to better communicate with her and of course work hard to fulfill the responsibilty God has given me. to protect me sister.
i may seem really impatient with her at times, or i may seem like i dont care, but deep down, there is this eagerness to do something, but i just dont know how to take the first step.
so im lifting this up to the LORD.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY!
van van

"The had the DNA God wanted to make you"

"nothing in life is arbitrary.Its all for a purpose." He had a plan in mind. "God knew that those two individuals possessed exactly the right genetic make up to create the custom "you" He had in mind."
My birth isnt an accident. i knew that the moment i accepted Him in my life. but there were times that i was guilty, asking God,"why this family, why this condition, why me?" and looking back, i feel silly now. Because if i knew the answers to those questions, i could be God already. If i know the reason or purpose He has in mind, then there is no need for Him.
But right now its a change of mind set. instead, "who am i to be worthy for You to die for me, who am i that You planned every tiny step of the way, who am i?"
From the book. 'purpose driven life' it states, God's motive for creating us is His love." long before He laid the earth's foundations, He had in mind, had settled on us at the focus of His love."
love, van.

You're the reason that i live

Great and cooling weather today. (: went to school as usual and dada fetched me (: yay. haha. but i was really really tired cause i burned the midnight oil. pout. haha. but but anyway, i was alright at school i guess. i was alert for econs, math i think that was all i had. oh yah and PW lecture which was about the amazing presentation skills of Steve Jobs. i think he is good. haha.
but thats not the point im trying to put across. i just want to thank God for the peace and i find school really easy going, although yes there are many many things piling up which i have to do, but still i have yet to find myself dreading to go to school. In fact, i look forward to going to school and to see what the Lord has installed for me for the day. He gives surprises that we dont expect at times.
yap, thats about it, today was, fine. went for YOG fencing and got to catch a picture with the german fencer who almost got the gold medal. he played well (: the thing was, whenever he scored a point, he would point upwards. i was wondering ' was he pointing to God above?' haha. but it would be cool if he was. thank God for allowing me to have this once in a lifetime experience to watch it.
yap, time to hit the books van (:
love yah.

Praising God will renew and rejuvenate you. Psalms 59 "I will sing of your strength in the morning and I will sing of your love for you are my refuge

My strength comes from the Lord.

Completed 5km run today (: not by my own strength, but with His. Today was the first time i decided to go and face a challenge i thought i couldnt overcome. And E was really right this time. i have to rely on God's strength and hope and not rely on my own. the run was a real good one because i knew i was not running alone (; He was running along side with me. Through the whole journey, i did some thinking, did some reflection, and even had the time to talk to the great one above.
But frankly, it was a short one. before i knew it, the race was coming to an end already. but i am thankful for the opportunity. thankful for i could take some time to just run and think and not have anything else on my mind. it was also good running on the road and knowing that you wont get run down by a car. anyway, it was a good experience. i didnt go for the run to expect any good result, but i am thankful for the timing i came in for. considering that fact that i have not ran so long in awhile, considering the fact that i am not a runner, considering the fact that its my first time going for a long distance race, i thank God. the amazing thing was, it didnt rain while we were running. it was raining before the race, but when the race started, it stopped. and it didnt rain at all throughout the whole race. then, it started raining about 30mins after i finished the run. haha. tats how amazing our Lord is. Its just His plan that i finish it. even the skies cleared just for the event.
The results of the run does not matter as long as you know you have given your best. honestly, i didnt give my best shot today because i wanted it to be run for completion event. i just wanted to complete it. as simple as that. and im happy i completed it.
yap, alright i need to recuperate now. its going to be Sabbath soon (:
Van, philippians 4:13 : i can do things through Christ who strengthens me (:.

Cherished connections

Got this from the daily bread.org (:
"Those who know Jesus Christ as their Savior have even stronger ties. We are forever connected to Him and to one another. “We, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another,” Paul says in Romans 12:5. We’ve been “born of God,” and we love those who are “begotten of Him” (1 John 5:1).
When we get together with fellow believers, we have the opportunity to talk about the one we love—Christ—and of the love, forgiveness, and grace we have experienced in Him because of His death and resurrection (4:9-10). At such times, we can encourage each other to continue to trust Him and spur one another on to be faithful in our walk with Him.
This coming Sunday and throughout the week, let’s remind fellow believers of all that Jesus has done and of how truly wonderful He is."

We Christians have a kinship with
All others who believe,
And from that bond of faith and love
A mutual strength receive. —Hess
The more you love Jesus, the more you’ll talk about Him.

Thoughts:
indeed, it has been a joy to know that there re actually many around who are so hungry and eager to know more about God.And these people have been a great encouragement to me. And its a joy to know that all of us are living for the same reason; to be more like Jesus, to be Christ-like. No one said that this journey would be easy, but with such fired christians, no matter how tough the road is, we know that Christ is in control so there is nothing we should fear apart from God.

Alright, thank God its finally friday. although this week was only wed, thurs and fri, but it felt like it lasted for the while week from monday til friday. tired tired, need more sleep.time to hit the books, cause its school time (:
love love love, van