Seeking my First love

Well, i guess i have heard it somewhere before, that God is our first love, and indeed, He first loved me before I even knew Him, before i was even formed in my mummy's womb. How magnificent is that huh. As much as i may not admit or come to terms with, I have lost my first love in many occasions. I forget Him, I ignore His good advices, i disappoint Him in many occasions, i make Him angry at the choices and decisions i make. And the worse of all, at times, i dont even trust Him enough.

From this month onwards, something new is about to happen. I no longer will attend the usual sunday service at 9am, nor sing at 9am anymore, but this saturday onwards, the new 5pm sunset service will start in church. And to top it all off, Alv's gonna start attending church with me again. Its been my prayer, or actually a burden in my heart for the longest time that Alv will come to truly know and recognise God as His Lord and Saviour. Although yes, a year and half ago he did open his heart to the Lord, however he could not attend church and get follow ups because of army and family reasons. But now finally, and i pray that God will do great wonders in his life. And he will too find his first love.
I'm longing to be back in His arms again, to feel is embrace. Ever since life took alittle detour, it has never been the same again. The journey has been tougher here and there, but we made it through yet so far, and I'm sure we'll find a way back to lead us to God's path. I yearn to see His face once again.

Thats my prayer.

Just last sunday, the preacher preached on the topic of "Are we transforming and growing in Christlikeness?" which urges us to to be sanctified and be transformed, putting away our old self and be renewed in the knowledge after the image of our creator. The sermon was based on Ephesians 4:17- 5:2.
Its said that transformation, is a lifelong process. A process. A process which includes a lifelong change, it has to be intentional, and all-of-life.
We need a revival and a change. The true battle, the spiritual battle, IS IN THE MIND.

And once again, there was a song that so easily comes to my mind about how at times when trials come our way, and our human nature just takes control, while God's soft prompting is easily ignored. Just like the angel and devil thingy in our heads.


Thank You Lord

Verse 1
And I thank you Lord
for the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day as I let You lead
And I thank You Lord
for the patience those trials bring
In that process of growing I can learn to care

Chorus
But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do
Cos when those trials come
My human nature shouts the thing to do
and God’s soft prompting can be easily ignored

Verse 2
Thank You, Lord with each trial I feel inside
That You’re there to help, lead and guide
me away from wrong
Cos You promised Lord that with ev’ry testing
That Your way of escaping’s easier to bear

Verse 3
I thank You Lord for the vic’try that growing brings
In surrender of everything, life is so worthwhile
And I thank You Lord,
that when ev’rything’s put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
and it’s there You belong

We have a high calling to live a upright life even though we may not be perfect.